Have you ever experienced social media remorse? You've said something or posted something that you've thought, "Maybe I shouldn't have?" Nine times out of 10, if you're questioning it, you probably shouldn't have, right? But sometimes it comes with a different cost. Will I be held accountable? Will there be judgment? Will people think less or differently of me?
For quite a while we kept our decision of adoption private. Not for any particular reason other than we were still grappling with all of the logistics ourselves. Still praying through what this calling looked like in our lives. Do we volunteer? Should we work with Casa for a few years? Are we looking at adoption through foster care, domestic, or international? Are we called to simply support families who are fostering children? Once we decided that yes, we were meant to adopt, we began to tell key people including our families and my boss (the agency was going to call him for verification, hello). Eventually that spread to a few friends and our community group at church. It felt intimate in a way. Then I posted a question on a Facebook group—one that I didn't realize so many people I was connected to were also on! It didn't take long for the "likes" or text messages to start. What have I done? I thought. I wasn't ready for this part yet. I don't have answers. My initial panic as you can imagine was unwarranted. I did answer a few questions, and there were ones I didn't have the answers to—which was also okay! But it also continued to propel us in the direction we knew the Holy Spirit was pushing. If you look to the context of baptism, there is nothing magical about the dunking of someone in water (Southern Baptist woman here!). It is an outward expression of an inward profession of faith. And that's what I'd done—purposely or not! "...and it was very good." Genesis 1:31 Yes, I know that's out of context. But so appropriate! It propelled us to keep going. God used those curious and encouraging friends to speak to our hearts and say, "Yes dear ones. You are doing exactly the thing I am asking of you." xoxo
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