For years I've found Christmas to be a sort of tricky holiday. It can bring about feelings and memories—not all of them pleasant. In general for our family, Christmas has always been a very big and busy holiday filled with all of the traditions that could possibly be crammed in. However, when I was young we lost a very important person in our lives on Christmas Day and for years, the holiday felt tainted. So it can be for families without children beaming around their Christmas tree. Among the clatter and glittering lights, I often hear the phrase, “Christmas is really about the children.” And in many regards that’s true. But what about the homes without children? Maybe adult children have moved on, family rifts have torn you apart, loss has some into play, or your home longs for children who haven’t come. For years I found myself to be somewhat ambivalent to the idea of having children. As a result of some life circumstances, the thought of rearing children wasn't always appealing. As things leveled out I began to think, "Why yes, I could be successful as a parent." {Who know, right? We all have doubts that we are in fact successful at something as obscure and subjective as parenting.} But I've notice especially during Christmas, the desire to have children is especially crippling. The reminders are everywhere:: social media, commercials, our own family homes... You can't escape images of giggling children in matching pajamas gathered around a mound of wrapping paper while parents loom with video cameras and laughing with pride. But even when there's a piece missing, there are still things and people worth celebrating. Visit Houston Moms Blog to see how Hubs and I celebrate in the wating. xoxo
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